Baby Jackson's Blog

It was nice to be home Thursday through part of Sunday. I hated leaving my boys, especially my little Bryan ("Bry, Bry"). He kept crying and saying he wanted to go and of course I was crying too. I can't even write about this without bringing the tears on.

We arrived Sunday after 5 to see our little Jackson. We were told he was doing well, still having high blood pressure, but being strong. He is down to 1 lbs 14 oz. The doctors said it is normal for them to loose 10% of their birth weight after the first week.

We got to hear him cry for the first time on Sunday, it was very pitiful. The nurse said he is a feisty little guy.

They started feeding him my breast milk on Sunday night and is tolerating it very well.

One of the nurses kept encouraging us to hold him. David and I felt very nervous about holding him until we talked to the doctor to make sure it would not cause any problems with his brain, causing bleeding. On Monday the doctor told us it would be good to hold Jackson and that his brain scan results showed no bleeding on one side and only a level one bleeding on the other side.

I got the courage to hold him, they even had me get him out of his incubator, which scared me to death. I was surprised that we could hold him when he is so small. He did great, he seemed to enjoy it and handled it very well. Bryan didn't handle his first holding, he kept desatting. My hand went numb as I was holding him and David stayed by my side to make sure I didn't fall asleep, for fear of not supporting his head.

A heart specialist is coming from Portland on Wednesday to consult with the doctors about his high BP. Jackson started a new medication on Monday that seems to be helping to reduce his BP.

David held Jackson for the first time today. He looked so natural doing it. He is a great dad, and he just loves his little Jackson. I will say he looks like an old man, and David will say, "no he is beautiful."

I got home today around 3:00 pm and I felt like it was Christmas today, because I couldn't wait to see my kids. I'm struggling with going back tomorrow. David's mom will be coming with me, I'm excited to spend time with her, she is a very special lady.

Thanks for all your prayers and support! The Lord is blessing us so much. I know things will work out. It will be a great celebration when he comes home.